Interview

It was quick and straightforward. I was definitely being myself. =) A little bit over myself I guess.

Hope all is well. =P

carez

Sometimes, we just need to wonder what is set next for us.

Being said above, we shouldn't always plan. In the case of relationship, definitely no planning required especially when you hit a dead end. =P

Generally speaking and no specific instances, human are created to be dumb. Human mind is so complex that they produce rational thoughts and irrational emotion at the same time on the same issue. Simple love-relationship issues often times are blown out of proportion and there we have, another 'it's complicated' status on facebook profile.

"But, it can't be help?! Right? We are Humans after all" says somebody~

True enough to a certain extend, we can't help it. We just face thoughts vs emotion from time to time. However, what we can do to ourself is that instead of thinking about others, we should think a moment for ourself. On top of that, you feel for others and you will find your ultimate reasoning and best way out of your "shit". Sadly, we are a very self protective species. We only feel sorry for ourself and always think about others.

"How can that be bad? thinking for others and feel for myself?" asked one

Well, thinking for others don't necessarily mean you are getting things right for others. What you may thought of, might not be what it may be wanted by others. OR what you think bad about others may not necessarily be true. And feeling for yourself, just makes you stop loving others. Acceptable reasoning? Feel free to comment if you like~ =)

So, decide for yourself... Go pursue the way out of complications.

Simplicity is going to rule this world in the next millennial.

问题解决了！选择了以理智来面对矛盾。。嘻嘻！

妹妹，谢谢你的关心！可惜，你怕的事情已经发生了。哈哈！

Kelly Tong~ Thank god you got it back. =P And Indeed, Malaysia Sort a got hope. =P

Des Moines Snow once again! Heavy snowing in fact.

I want to dedicate a blog post to Brother Xin Yi publicly and a good friend of mine Celine Seah. But not this post la of course. The next post when I finish my classes. =P

For now~ Just want to say, I got an invitation for Interview!! =) But not putting any hopes on it. I realize I'll perform better with a normal heart! =) After all, I am who I am. Don't need to act who I am not. =P Authentic will be my word for them! =)

Time for class~ see Ya peepz

omgwtfbbq!? Malaysia has hope~* :O

Haha. All in Chinese. Prejudice-nya~

You could do a translation xD Like.. they do for song lyrics O_o

AnywaySs, I have managed to amaze myself today.

In a bad way -_-

After the million times of freaking out because I thought I left my mobile behind and all alone somewhere out there only to find it in my pocket or in my bag, I somewhat abandoned it for real today. And the stupid thing about that is, even when I was told that I was being called and I didn't pick up at all, I didn't even bother checking. The stupid thing this time is, that I didn't even feel, let alone suspect, it's absence...

... until I reached home and decided to nap for a few minutes, grabbed my bag to draw out my mobile to check for calls or messages or to prepare myself for any future ones, only did I find it FREAKING MISSING.

For two hours or so, I've been at Mid Valley Garden's car park talking and sleeping the ride all the way home absolutely clueless of leaving my mobile the very second I decided to leave, get off the seats, walk down the stairs and exit the cinema hall.

I swear my head was spinning I could have cried on the spot.

What if some freak took it. I'm sure that freak would have. I would never have a chance to see it again. What would happen to all my sms-es and contacts. Shit. Any friend I chanced to meet only once. Anything they didn't care and didn't think of but would have meant something to me. What if I would never see it again?! What if I can't reply anyone's sms-es. What would happen if my parents find out. What if, what if, what if..!?

Thank God I had someone call my number to check if I was only making another mistake, or if I did screw up this time. And then, someone called back =D! -gush of relief takes place here- It was reported that my mobile was at the GSC counter and I could return to collect it~*

Which was what I did. All the way back to Mid Valley again. After a whole load of questioning with answers ranging from, "Pink, Samsung F480, Hall 14, 11.30am", some of which I wasn't even asked but I just said anyway, there it was. My old, dirtying and dying but loyal mobile.

And that was when I "sort-of" saw Malaysia in a different light :D

I think, at this point, we have hope!

I mean, how many of you would have actually thought that the chance to getting back a lost and left behind mobile in the cinema is one of a positive? Right? RighT?!

Thank God :)

And the nice people :3

Sorry for blogging in chinese, Just felt like it

刚刚我从我被冷藏已久的“我的生涯”部落格见到我当时的心情，发现我人生中出现了太多的矛盾抉择。

现在的我发着高烧，不知是缺乏很好的睡眠还是染上了我常拿来开玩笑的猪瘟。无论如何，我会好好的照顾自己。我不会再让谁为我操心了。

近来的这几个星期，我发现我做了一件我不该做的事。我辛辛苦苦放在心底的心情，不知为何我要把它摊开来。导致现在大家都有点不开心。自私的我，为什么要那么的冲动？再此，我想说声对不起。我搞炸了你的心情。

现在的我该怎么办？为何要再次那么的矛盾。若我能狠心，果断无情的坚持一开始自己设下的游戏规则，我就不必陷入爱的陷阱。

其实我很想问自己，我爱她吗？我的一举一动从不符合我的感情。假设我爱她，我不该会跟别人尝试一段感情。可是在每段感情里，我都会以我跟她的感情作为我尝试在一起谈恋爱的终点。

还有一个可能性就是我怕再次伤了我的心，无法再向她示爱。无论如何，现在我该做的就是默默地等候。天时地利人和的机遇，若是有缘，就会在一起。

“以恩，你再哀哭也无法挽回你的过去。好好的往前望~！让未来纠正以前的过错。若你是爱她的，时间会告诉你。"

明白吗？

Des Moines

Good old days~ =)

I'm happy that I have not suffer Jet lag Symptom but I do have flu-like symptom. Tsk tsk.

Either way, I'll be praying for classes to cancel tomorrow so that I would be able to rest more!! =)

The current temperature outside is about 23 degree Fahrenheit. Approximate -4c. Ain't too bad.

I'm heading to bed now~ Good night everyone!

Yee En

18 hours

Departing in less than 18 hours.

Time Spent:-

Family: 8/10
Kelly: 10/10
Brothers gang: 6/10
others: 10/10

I had improved since the last time I talk about this. xD Very happy about it and glad I did better now.

Though this trip back US would be short unless I get an internship over in States, I feel I am leaving this place with heavy heart. A very heavy one! Many factors that got me to this but I guess I am mature enough to handle good byes.

I will be better when the next time I hit Malaysia. I will~

=) Bon Voyage my friends in Malaysia.

Hello people in the States~ I'm BACK!! =)